Saturday, October 01, 2005
My Mother
My father like so many other fathers, cared so little about his own child that he never made the attempt to get to know me or know what my life had become.
Psalm 146; 9
The LORD protects the strangers; He supports the fatherless and the widow, But He thwarts the way of the wicked.
My mother, Barbara, looked a lot like her mother. She too was light skinned, tiny, with a big beautiful smile and a rebellious nature. I believe my mother had become promiscuous at such a young age because she was looking for something that she felt was missing in her life. The love and affection of her own parents.
My mother, at such a young age knowing that both of her parents were alive and didn’t want her, what a heavy burden that must have been for one so young to have to carry. If her own parents didn’t love her enough to want her, how could God?
Aah, but here are these young men in her life telling her how cute she was, how desirable she was, and how much they wanted her. You see, back in the forties and fifties, especially in the south light skinned Negro women, were thought to be more attractive than their dark skinned counterparts.
2 Samuel 11;2,3,4
Then it happened one evening that David arose from his bed and walked on the roof of the king's house. And from the roof he saw a woman bathing, and the woman was very beautiful to behold. So David sent and inquired about the woman. And someone said, "Is this not Bathsheba, the daughter of Eliam, the wife of Uriah the Hittite?" Then David sent messengers, and took her; and she came to him, and he lay with her.
Ladies, as you can see from this passage, men will lust after women and do what ever it takes to get you into their beds. For those of you who may not know the complete story, David who was king of Judah, had seen Bathsheba, someone else’s wife, bathing herself up on the rooftop one evening. He immediately started lusting after her. Bathsheba was married to Uriah, a soldier in King David’s army. Even though David knew that Bathsheba was married to another, it didn’t stop him from wanting to have Bathsheba for himself. When David found out he had impregnated Bathsheba, he decided to have Uriah killed and take Bathsheba as is own wife.
2 Samuel 12;9
Why did you despise the word of the Lord by doing what is evil in his eyes? You struck down Uriah the Hittite with the sword and took his wife to be your own. You killed him with the sword of the Ammonites. After Bathsheba was done with mourning the death of her husband, David sent for her and she became his wife and bore him a son.
Even men of God will give in to sexual temptation. Ladies, if a mighty man of God would commit such a great sin like that and do something that he knew was wrong, what makes you think that a man who has no knowledge of God’s word will do. When we start looking to the world to fulfill our empty hearts, we can only find heartbreak.
My mother, a young girl of 13 started being a mother long before her time because she was looking to fill an empty void in her life. I never had an opportunity to talk to my mother about this. Maybe she felt that these men she slept with could replace the love she felt she wasn’t getting from her parents. Maybe she felt that only her children could give her the kind of love she had been missing. Or maybe she just didn’t feel she was worthy of God’s love. Only she can answer that question.
By the time my mother was eighteen she had three children by three different men, none of whom where her husband. Now understand, this was during a period of time when being an unwed mother was one of the most disgraceful things that a young woman could do. Not once, twice, but three times did my mother go against the strict rules of the church and society in her forlorn search for love.
John 4;17,18
"I have no husband," she replied. Jesus said to her, "You are right when you say you have no husband. The fact is, you have had five husbands, and the man you now have is not your husband. What you have just said is quite true."
Psalm 146; 9
The LORD protects the strangers; He supports the fatherless and the widow, But He thwarts the way of the wicked.
My mother, Barbara, looked a lot like her mother. She too was light skinned, tiny, with a big beautiful smile and a rebellious nature. I believe my mother had become promiscuous at such a young age because she was looking for something that she felt was missing in her life. The love and affection of her own parents.
My mother, at such a young age knowing that both of her parents were alive and didn’t want her, what a heavy burden that must have been for one so young to have to carry. If her own parents didn’t love her enough to want her, how could God?
Aah, but here are these young men in her life telling her how cute she was, how desirable she was, and how much they wanted her. You see, back in the forties and fifties, especially in the south light skinned Negro women, were thought to be more attractive than their dark skinned counterparts.
2 Samuel 11;2,3,4
Then it happened one evening that David arose from his bed and walked on the roof of the king's house. And from the roof he saw a woman bathing, and the woman was very beautiful to behold. So David sent and inquired about the woman. And someone said, "Is this not Bathsheba, the daughter of Eliam, the wife of Uriah the Hittite?" Then David sent messengers, and took her; and she came to him, and he lay with her.
Ladies, as you can see from this passage, men will lust after women and do what ever it takes to get you into their beds. For those of you who may not know the complete story, David who was king of Judah, had seen Bathsheba, someone else’s wife, bathing herself up on the rooftop one evening. He immediately started lusting after her. Bathsheba was married to Uriah, a soldier in King David’s army. Even though David knew that Bathsheba was married to another, it didn’t stop him from wanting to have Bathsheba for himself. When David found out he had impregnated Bathsheba, he decided to have Uriah killed and take Bathsheba as is own wife.
2 Samuel 12;9
Why did you despise the word of the Lord by doing what is evil in his eyes? You struck down Uriah the Hittite with the sword and took his wife to be your own. You killed him with the sword of the Ammonites. After Bathsheba was done with mourning the death of her husband, David sent for her and she became his wife and bore him a son.
Even men of God will give in to sexual temptation. Ladies, if a mighty man of God would commit such a great sin like that and do something that he knew was wrong, what makes you think that a man who has no knowledge of God’s word will do. When we start looking to the world to fulfill our empty hearts, we can only find heartbreak.
My mother, a young girl of 13 started being a mother long before her time because she was looking to fill an empty void in her life. I never had an opportunity to talk to my mother about this. Maybe she felt that these men she slept with could replace the love she felt she wasn’t getting from her parents. Maybe she felt that only her children could give her the kind of love she had been missing. Or maybe she just didn’t feel she was worthy of God’s love. Only she can answer that question.
By the time my mother was eighteen she had three children by three different men, none of whom where her husband. Now understand, this was during a period of time when being an unwed mother was one of the most disgraceful things that a young woman could do. Not once, twice, but three times did my mother go against the strict rules of the church and society in her forlorn search for love.
John 4;17,18
"I have no husband," she replied. Jesus said to her, "You are right when you say you have no husband. The fact is, you have had five husbands, and the man you now have is not your husband. What you have just said is quite true."
